Almost a year ago...

So yeah, it's been almost a year since my last post. It's hard to believe it's been that long. I am feeling kind of out of it now and I have for the last couple of weeks. Do you ever feel that you have stopped moving, meanwhile the world continues to spin faster and faster around you?? That's kind of how I've been feeling. I have no motivation for day to day activities and I can't seem to see an end. I've been feeling pretty depressed and unloved also. I've gotten to the point where I am forgetting how it feels to be apart of something more. I don't get to see my friends all that much anymore, and I'm sure that's part of it. It's funny, I worked so hard to "grow up" (which in my terms can scarcely be considered an adult) that I forgot what it means to just forget about responsibility and have some fun. I used to be obsessed with having fun and now I've forgotten how. Now when did that happen?? Why did I choose to grow old...which is something I've always promised I would never do. I hate feeling this way...but I'm unsure of how to go about changing it. I know that I only tend to write on here when I'm feeling crappy, and I think that's OK. I really wish I had something positive to say, but right now I'm just feeling blue. I don't have too much else to say, except that I am going to try and start posting again, at least once every week or two. Maybe I'll try and write some more poetry or publish some that I have already written. But as for now, I'll just end it with a sigh....