Catching up....

So yeah, so much for being able to post a lot more since I now have a computer, but it's all good. Now I'm outta school for awhile and so perhaps now I will have some extra time...So yeah...Here I am. Not a lot of exciting things have happened since I've been here last. Tomorrow Dan comes to stay with me and I'm kinda kicking myself for inviting him over in the first place. I have a feeling that I'm gonna want to smack him early on. I think that for the most part, it won't be him hanging out with us more that will bother me, but it'll be the times when I like that it's just a few select friends hanging out that it'll bother me. Like when I'm having "Dave time" or "Fay time" or Brea-Anne or Schalk or Gerry...Or any of my friends for that matter. I like having time just to chill with one or two of my close friends and I don't get that all that often but while Dan's here, I won't get the chance at all and I guess I'll just have to make do for a week or two, but that doesn't mean that I won't complain about it. I do like Dan, don't get me wrong (I especially like arguing with him) and who knows, we may end up becoming really close, which could be cool (I like having close friends :o) But yeah, enough about Dan in here. On to another topic.

So lets see...I still have some unresolved issues that are driving me nuts, I just wish that I knew how boys' minds worked, but I'm confident that as soon as I stop chickening out that it'll all be otay. I've got some signs and I just hope that I'm interpreting those signs correctly. But yeah, more about that at another time...

On a happy, less pathetic note, it's been well over a week (we're approaching a week and a half) since I have smoked a single cigarette. Not so much of a puff has entered my lungs. I kinda yelled at Marissa on Sat. Because she was commenting on my coughing and telling me that I shouldn't smoke so much. Well, this pissed me off because I hadn't smoked in a while, I was just sick, so (not in the nicest way mind you) I told her that she should have her facts straight before she jumps to conclusions. And I don't feel bad about it either because she really pissed me off. If people want to tell me that I shouldn't smoke because it's bad for me, that's one thing, but when people look down on you for smoking it's completely another and that it was I always felt like with her. I felt like she thought I was a bad person and that she was a better person because she doesn't' smoke. And that doesn't sit well with me, I still feel like I am a good person.

Ok, so maybe I'm a tad bit bitter right now. Even when I try to bring up something on a positive note, I still end up talking about somebody and being bitter. Crazy, huh?? I don't want to be bitter, it's just what is coming out. Well, I'm gonna take my bitter show on the road and go get ready for work. But don't worry, I plan on checking my bitterness at the door tonight at Stacey's and for the rest of the weekend parties for that matter too. SO yeah, until next time (which hopefully won't be too terribly long) keep it real.