All sorts of crazy :o)

So yeah, what's been up with me...not a whole lot that's new. Just been thinking some things over. I've been a lot happier these past couple weeks, which is weird because I don't have a particular reason to be happy. I was to a point where I was crying myself to sleep and feeling sorry for myself and I guess I just got over it, which is really cool. I still miss my friends and how close we once were, but I know that I'll be able to make it. I have been pondering what to do with my life and I'm still not exactly sure what I am doing and why, which is a little scary. I feel like the main reason I am an EDU major is because of lack of options. There's not a lot that I'm good at or have somewhat of an interest in and I feel like EDU is the only thing I could do. And that's what makes my decision kinda fuzzy, but I'm confident that this is ok and that things will work out the way they are supposed to. I'm still feeling a little lonely, but it doesn't rear its ugly head all that often because I've been keeping busy. I like that I have enough stuff to keep me from thinking too much about stuff that doesn't matter right now anyway. School is school and I;m actually doing better (knock on wood) than I have done the past couple semesters. I had my group interview for the SOL position today and I think it went good, but only 20 people get chosen out of 105. Those odds aren't so good. I was thinking about what Al said at Bible Study on Wed. and I know that I want this job 100%. There's not a question in my mind at all. And if I'm this sure then I know God is behind me, but what if the other 104 people are sure too...that's what I'm worried about. Oh well, I don't have to wait too long, I'll find out on Mon. hopefully. But keep me in your prayers in the mean while. I don't have anything to do tonight, so I'll probably think about it a little too much, but the rest of my weekend is pretty packed, so then I shouldn't dwell too much. I just know that I am going to be so disappointed...I've never wanted a job so much. But oh well, we'll see....
so yeah...Mena kix ass, and I'm outta here :o)